What made me so unlovable?
That you despised me so.
Was it something I said or did?
Your little girl wants to know.

You taught me I wasn't loved or wanted,
That you were all I had.
I wondered why my life existed,
If it was to only be this sad.

Some days you were a friend,
And I saw a glimmering light.
Until I didn't conform as such,
And I would see your rage and might.

All I ever needed was to be loved and held,
But it seems the more I yearned for this,
The more you shouted and yelled.

As only a parent could,
In your hands you held my heart.
You played with it too much,
And you tore my soul apart.

Others saw the attentive parent,
You played your part so well,
Not a soul around us noticed,
How you were putting me through hell.

I learned what is love from the best,
And my partners were mirrors of you,

Controlling, cruel and abusive,
If I were to name just a few.

But for all the times you beat me down,
A ninja within me stirred.
For all the times I could not speak,
I vowed to be heard.

For every chunk of me you tore into,
My little ninja grew strong.
For all the times you stroke me down,
She sang her fighting song.

See my ninja and me, we are now wise,
And we can see the world through your eyes.
You were selfish, weak and sad,
And you wanted to make sure you were all I had.
So I wouldn't leave you be,
And follow a life for me.
But you pushed too hard, and now I am gone,
It's too late for you to right your wrongs.

Out of the ashes this Phoenix has found her flight,
And all she see’s is her future, and now it seems bright.